Okay, so we all know that our activity in the guild on Trickster Online, has lately dropped. And I do take the blame for it, for I have not been logging on as often as I used to be. I am saddened that this is happening now, and as I have mentioned many times before, I hate using the excuse of finals, because honestly, I've been using that excuse for about two months. I understand that all of us are all over, but 2 months of finals, pulling into the 3rd month now, is just ridiculous.
I am going through personal problems for myself. Real life problems in which I'm not sure will allow me to play games actively anymore as I used to. So, this is somewhat like a "Where is everyone?" thread, but except, we're going to actually discuss what is REALLY going on with everyone. I want all of you guys' intake on why Symphony is dying, and why I haven't heard from most of you. And please, really, spare me the agony and don't use the finals excuse. If anything, if it's REALLY finals, I want to know when you'll be done.
:] I love you all, but our inactivity is going on for too long, I need to know if you guys even care about the guild anymore. <3
Also, if your problem is too personal, I don't mind a PM. :]
Work, work and more work makes me a sad boy =/. Playing at night time means I won't be seeing most of our guild members but rest assured my activity will improve in end June when I quit my job, but it prolly will drop in August onwards when college starts.
I hope you stay with us as long as you can Yuki. I'm sure most of us, given enough time, will do anything together with you. I know you have a lot of MMOs in your sights to try out, invite us to play with you :] I'm sure anyone in this guild who cares about you, or anyone else, would be more than happy to, if they are capable.
I hope your problems end well bewb, I wish you the best <3
I've had the opportunity to return to the game but not the willpower. There's just other things I'd rather be doing lately, as well as the thought that I don't want to start getting into any game just to have to quit if I end up with a heavy work schedule. I'll hopefully have a new job by next week if all goes as planned.
Honestly, at this point I don't know if I'll even go back to TO and be anywhere near as active as I was, or if I'll play for any game for a while, especially since my computer sucks for most games. I've been dropping back into the anime-watching and fanfic reading I did for years before I started playing TO back in 2006.
I got finals done last month already and I'm in summer break, working on weekends, campus club stuff, important appointments (just this month.. such as study permit stuffs etc.) and other random stuff during weekdays.. I haven't logged on as much lately because it feels as if I got nothing to do once I'm in the game. heck, I feel the same about Guild Wars @_@;. Anyways.. before, the guild chat was quite active so it kept me in the game even when I'm in the TO-is-boring period (happens once a while.. XD). Now for some reason I find myself playing console games during my free time.. I've been on Metroid Prime and Majora's Mask non-stop lately.. I'll be active in TO soon, once my TO-is-boring period ends, hopefully in one or two weeks.
Plus, I've been feeling very down this month due to some issues. ._.; [and no, no one died and I still got straight A this semester XD]
If you're concerned about other games and activity and junk, you guys could like.. just merge with Retri in games o: I know a bunch of people are playing Cabal, if thats your thing, and it wouldnt be a problem for most of us to hop around and try games and junk :x
You know Im having internet wars at home lol D: Sucks I havent even been able to use Vent T_T
That certainly is a possibility, since it seems Symphony and Retribution have a shared vent. I don't have any issues with it, it'll provide people to play with, help dull boredom, since that's what kills my drives with games a lot: no one to play with ;-;
If you feel its too personal to tell everyone, then just PM it to Yuki, like she said you could. Its all up to you whether or not you feel comfortable telling everyone what's going on with you, just keep that in mind. No pressure man.
anyway I'm posting it inside a spoiler tag and going to sleep, yes I actually need to rest ._.
I'm currently around everyday, this is my current University schedule Thursday, May 21, 2009: University
or ok, I admit it, don't need to go uni as I don't have courses, however I don't have a safe studying place at home, so I prefer to go university and study there. Last time however was bad, this time I'll go elsewhere, shouldn't become too dependant on a single place (yes was full)
Tuesday, May 26, 2009: Final Exam
Final Physics Exam and submission of all homework excercises (counts as 3rd exam)
apart from that, I've just made a resume to apply for a job at a computer store, repairing computers and so on, which means, if successful, I'll be working during the summer and earn some money to plan for building a new computer.
as for life issues, I'm trying to take it easy, this is beyond solution, however I need to somehow "help myself" around this, I've realized I need to calm down, give more time to family and so on, however idk how I'll turn out, problem is, I don't like to be bothered while I'm busy and concentrated on my stuffs, or well up to some level is ok, but this has been happening so repeatedly that now even for simple stuffs I get annoyed and aggreviate me so bad. Yes, this is affecting me at some point, I try to act as normal as possible, however my life direction goes changed somewhat or w/e, can't think straight or concentrate after such a time. Without going into life issues, this is my current family schedule
Friday, May 29, 2009: Sister's coming
My sister's coming and since last weekend I didn't have or wasn't feeling well at all, I couldn't get my time into her. It's not that I'm sick, it's how I feel inside myself, yes I'm having some sort of pressure at all times trying to avoid being bothered and so on, and at that time I was literally collapsed and locked myself on my room, and lol @ door. I didn't reply there, but I'll let it known that my parents removed the big list of paperwork I did, I didn't mind for their actions but, I just want them to give me time when I need it. They later placed another paper on it telling me a message, but I rejected it, and decided not to respond about it when they all came back on monday. Yes, was alone all weekend, that actually gave me time and space to clear out my mind on them, still I've been having other problems too that still persist on me. When a pressure goes on me it tends to stay for a while, and it bothers me so easily and I worry a lot or w/e happens to me, yes I've been acting like a jerk recently ._., I admit it, but it's how I feel.
Saturday, May 30, 2009: Spend time with family
I'll be taking this day to spend some time with my family along with my sister, all day
even tho those days are reserved, I'm always available at nights, also why I prefer to be woke up at night rather than during the day? because I can be alone and concentrate on my stuff, or actually it's my best time to, sometimes I can't due to w/e happened during the day or before my night time comes, yes I'm up all the way to 4am or 5am, I before had a time limit of 4:30am, but I no longer limit myself, I just keep going until either I'm sleepy or I'm done or w/e, yesterday however I went to sleep sooner to take a break
Also, talking about the guild, I need to post a bit more often around here, what motivates me is activity, no activity = no motivation for me, so in order to prevent frustration or w/e, I only come sometimes when I feel like it.
I'm currently waiting for Dragonica OBT on IAHGames to come up and play on it, yes it'll be my new game I'll be active on, anyone coming? feel free to come in ^^, it's current unofficial OBT date is May 28th 2009, however it could be up to in the mid June. It will be announced officially before being release.
For those who saw me, yes I went to the EU servers too, however I'll prefer to stay on the IAH one because of it being international and having such an active community and great GMs there, tho I'll not really pay much attention to such things, I prefer such a lively place due to what happened on TO to me, yes I hate ntreev, the GMs are irresponsible, most events are biased towards myshop, and once in a while there's a good event, by which I think it's to draw new players in and then trap them on their trap or w/e, yes totally descepting practice. For those who knows, I'm still upset of losing my old accounts, yes they got stolen by my gf at the time. NO DISCUSSION ABOUT THIS PLEASE, PM me instead if you really care, however I only release information if I know you. Also, due to this is why I renamed myself to Crypt and decided to just forget everything about the past. I did make CryptShooter as I got some sort of instant motivation on myself to make it, however at the time I still wasn't realized of the happening (again NO DISCUSSION ABOUT THIS PLEASE, PM me if you care, however I'll only release information if I know you) .. LOL I'll just stop, for those who know please keep it silence as ... well I don't want more drama, or well, not really drama, but i just want to forget, or well w/e
I will however tell that my whole "Crypt" identity is totally a fake identity of me, or let's say an online identity of myself, however I give out all false information, why? privacy, and hiding or w/e, no I no longer give my real information to anyone, not even for games, at least not online, on places that requires it I still do, but carefully choosen. Very few knows my real info, and I mean it very few, including some old friends. Also, if I see any information about the real me posted, I'm willing to report it for privacy violation (also no, not even mods or admins here knows, my only real info here is my birthday, so pay attention to today's birthday!)
lol I realized I made this post into a total explain myself post, hmm maybe I got off-topic but I'll leave this as I've written it, nothing bad anyway and nothing bad, yes I a lot tend to have trouble talking with ppl or interacting somewhat, I try not to cause such trouble, and so I try not to let things affect me, tho sometimes is literally impossible, I can only say, I tried, as I said, my life situation isn't easy
i try to explain my feelings sometimes, but a lot I'd rather not talk about them and try to just leave them behind, it depends on how I feel, but yes, I have to prevent all this from affecting my friendship relationships and so on
guess that's all I got to say for now x.x, to say the truth i got on my mind due to an outside noise, yes I'm even sensitive to such noises while concentrated, i wish my life was easier however it isn't, still I need to somehow "help myself" on this, I actually need to become more friendly with my family, anyway hope you all understand what I'm saying, yes this is a long post @.@ didn't mean to, but lol I ended up explaining myself rather than placing my current schedule and such a background information about my situation and so on. I wish nothing happened but well, nothing's perfectly clear
lol again, yes, I know, this is an unexpected long post, and I keep making it longer lol, to make this short, I'll just post the needed info lol, kinda of a summary ahead
Current Schedule Thursday, May 21, 2009 - University: Study for final exam Tuesday, May 26, 2009 - University: Final exam Friday, May 29, 2009 - Sister coming Saturday, May 30, 2009 - Time with family
and yes, I'm getting a job summer, as said at first I've made a resume to get a job at a computer store, currently I'm in need of money to build a new computer
I'm also waiting for Dragonica OBT on IAHGames, which will be my new game I'll be active on, if anyone wants to come, feel free to come in
x.x for some reason I'm nervous now ._., please don;t mind me on this, it's what happened (the outside noise), well I wish I could explain why I feel so easily this way, but well, I don't even understand myself, really <.<, but yes, I'll try to do better on this, hope you guys understand, and yes, I'm going to sleep. Yes, this took me about an hour, and another hour thinking of what to post or say lol, turn out I posted all this, oh well, need to learn not to let things affect me as I said and be more friendly, see if I can fix my situation, this is all up to me and I'll see how I do, ok well, to free up myself, I'll be doing as I can, I'll be doing my best to relieve my life situation, and see if I can do better in the future, because yes, this is affecting me, hopefully I'll be successful
lol I;m talking too much already, but yes, ended up saying all this @.@
yes, I talked more about my life rather than the intended topic, anyway good night
Honestly, I'm at my most active times now ( thanks to Biske and Nek0 for grinding ). But yea. I have summer advance classes for Physics, Chemistry, Trigonometry and Analytic Geometry. I also Have Summer Jobs. But I make it a point to cancel all those when Nek0 informs me about his grinding times in advance. @.@ And i'm always on at around 6pm - 12mn Philipine-Singapore time.
But... In 10 days, school will start and we have the honor of taking the National Achievement Test AGAIN. .-. So, the school'll pummel us with school works and homeworks and quizzes and weekend reviews and hardcore sessions ( they WANT to get into the hall of fame THAT badly ). Although i'll still play during friday nights, some saturdays and sundays, I can tell you now that my activity will go dive.
For this, Sorry in Advance
Oh and Yuki, it's not completely your fault. It isn't anyone's fault. Guilds go thru down times like these. Real life comes before games anyways. Hope your life turns out good for you.
And yes, I care about the Guild.
Sorry in Advance
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