nnn... No, I'm pretty sure my interest in getting on Eden right now is hovering around zilch.
In other news, I apparently have ocd tendencies, who knew? I certainly never thought it was bad enough to be equated with ocd 8C But I guess that's because I deal with it often, so it's normal to me.
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[22:53] Set: eat meat, lots of it e ue
[22:54] V e i l !: I like meat, but I'm picky about it. Can't be too juicy, can't have a lot of fatty nonsense in it, that's gross, etc.
[22:55] Set: you're so picky! /pinches
[22:57] V e i l !: I know :c It's pretty terrible. Can't identify it? Won't touch it. Smells funny? Won't touch it. Looks gross? Won't touch it. And then there's textures. I also can't stand different foods touching each other on my plate, and I will go as far as rinsing my plate between each different food just so they do not intermingle, shit like that. List goes on.
[22:58] Set: holy shit, you have some ocd problems 8C
[22:59] V e i l !: The mixing thing? Maybe. It's not like it will stress me greatly if things mix. I'll either suck it up or just not eat that part. Like if we're at a restuarant or something, I can't really help that. But at home, rinse plate, always. Eat some noodles, rinse plate. Then get some meat. Like that.
[23:00] V e i l !: My dad thinks it's humerous to crack jokes about it, though. And it's not really something I can just up and change suddenly, because it does genuinely bother me.
[23:01] Set: why does it bother you
[23:02] V e i l !: I don't know. I don't think I've always been like that, but I don't know how long I've been doing this now :c Couldn't be too many years. I just.. I see foods mixing on my plate, and I immediately feel an urge to separate them 8C
[23:03] Set: you need to get over that o no;; that shit is mixing -in your stomach-
[23:03] Set: it's not going to hurt you to have it mix on the plate
[23:03] Set: just expose yourself to it
[23:03] Set: do you get an anxiety attack if you eat those foods?
[23:04] V e i l !: I know it mixes in my stomach, This fact does not bother me. However, I still taste it as I'm eating if they get mixed, and I don't like that in the least.
Uhm, maybe a little anxious if I see something start to ooze toward some other food item, but beyond that, no.
[23:05] Set: but -why-
[23:06] V e i l !: I don't know why 8C You can ask me as many times as you please, I will not have an answer for you.
[23:06] Set: think about it, then
[23:08] V e i l !: You think I haven't? I don't know why it bothers me, or why it started in the first place. I wasn't like this at all when I was younger. I haven't a clue what triggered it and why it persists.
[23:09] Set: I need to go shower, brb
stress causes people to develop OCD tendencies, lack of control being one thing
[23:10] V e i l !: I don't know :c I don't usually consider myself stressed, but I probably have been considerably more stressed the last few years than I've ever been.
[23:23] Set: you need to deal with it before it gets worse
[23:24] V e i l !: welcome back
Is that a likely possibility? :c
[23:26] Set: well...yes
[23:26] Set: ocd usually gets worse around puberty
[23:27] Set: and if it's not treated then it can escalate
[23:28] V e i l !: Well ****.
Well fark, indeed. How much worse could it possibly get? Seems so minor, but maybe that's how these things start out :c
I'm not sure how much worse you could get with that. Perhaps refuse to eat something if the food touches at all, even in restaurants? I can see someone further down the line requesting their food come on separate plates. The small anxiety now could turn into flipping your shit later.
Aww Yaisha, it's okie... I understood why you left. I hope you do come back though, Symphony will always be open and waiting for you, as for Azure, when you left, we gave him a good "beating" haha. Miss you Yaisha <3 and Angarrrr Keep in touch with us ;o;