kmelfina

OKAY so after getting my sis Magic Cards for her B-day gift from Wal-Mart, my family dropped me off for Pride Festival. I didn't tell them what the event was about, just ''I need to be dropped off here''. The rainbow flags and drag queens must have given it away x_X;

I saw Alex and he was working to selling food from a stand. Got to talk for a bit, and he invited me to Godfrey's to see him serve jello shots in his underwear xD Got a few condoms from my friend's table which was for...

Well for the past few days I've been bothering Alex on FB/Skype wanting to talk to him... and I feel I'm REALLY on the line of ''obsession'' since the 29th is coming (Gay RVA/Richmond Pride where he gets to come over!!!). Damn anxiety, and I have homework/online quizzes/projects to think about >_<; I can't believe I'm placing so much time for a boy... even though he's the only gay guy that would gladly __ me if given the opportunity and that we came from the same high school so that should...

Had a breakdown of tears after looking up my MATLAB grade. I'm just getting worse (currently have an 85%, I read the steps and look at the book and still miss a few important concepts). I know I've been past blogs before about what my thoughts on GPA were... I really am split. I like to relax at a steady pace, but the guilt/shame/expectation also pulls me on the other end. I know my parents wanted me to strive to the top, but I know in my heart that... well it just isn't me. I don't even know what...

On the inside is what I mean. I'll explain...

Dorm life: well it's new. Constant fire alarms the first 3 weeks. The worst case was a 1:30 AM, where in the end a SHOOTING took place a few blocks away (we all heard the gun shots and ran back into the building!!!!). Room mate and I don't talk much, oh well we're both on our computers. Don't think I could communicate with him well... He's nice though and would rather have privacy.

Classes (warning, for I'll also list if...

Er June 2 as passed away.. but regardless. Just another year!

I'm in California, Encino so... yeah spending time on interwebz and library (only books on sexuality since I still can't get hormones out). If anyone remembers Alex from previous blogs... yeah I recently interacted with him. He thought I got rid of my virginity xD Guess I'll be the butt of every 'virgin sacrifice' joke. I head back to VA on the 25th of July so there's a 2-3 week time frame where I can see him 'physically'....