Originally Posted by Globalastro
How's your mom doing?
I understand your social phobia, a whole lot of my friends were like you. I was that annoying kid who got picked on all the time and really had few friends, but i wasnt uncomfortable to be around. I guess that because of my "i have no friends, will you be my friend? I wont judge you if you dont judge me" attitude helped, and im hoping that i made an impact on some of them. It also helped that, although i talk a hell of a lot, i cant hold a conversation, so if anyone else joined into my ramblings, i would shut up and listen and stop rambling. Granted, it consisted of a lot of "yeah, ok, :nod: uh-huh's" i would actually listen and relate things they would later say to things that had been said before, so it was apparent that i was actually listening.
How old are you now, and how are you doing now? Reason i ask, i want to make sure the drinking and smoking, etc. didnt have a negative impact. I understand how they help in the "now" but for some, it makes the social phobia harder to overcome.
Thanks for the reply and understanding.
My mums ok, it was hell but she got through it and got back on her feet.
As for the drink and drugs, that pretty much stopped once i finished at TVU and got a job back in my home town, met a girl and had a relationship for 2-3years,who is now my ex, but thats another story.
I still strugle with being social and find it very hard to hold down a job because i'll avoid people even when im aware that i shouldn't be doing it and have no reason to do so.
I also feel bad for some of my friends who must think i hate them or something because i never wanna hang out and allways make some excuse to get out of it.
I really should try and explain my situation to them sometime.
A friend from trickster asked me the other day why i enjoy playing mmo's but hate being social.
Thats an interesting question, i guess its my compensation for the real thing and since there is no real contact i dont feel uncomfortable