wow its been awhile since I last visited this site. oh mai oh mai..... I dont know if others still remembers me xD.. teeeeheee
Hmzz,,, ok lets get this started.
As what the title says.. Im getting tired.. yeah really really tired. tired of what? tired of waiting, tired of thinking what should I do with life...
lemme give u a gist of it.
i graduated from a University at the age of 19 , majoring in Business Administration. After I graduated I decided to rest for a month before I looked for a job. And yeah, the first company I applied in is also the first company who hired me ( after all I didn't try for any other company).
Im currently an accountant in accounting firm eventhough Accountancy is not my major. How did I get in? I have this schoolmate in college (whom I have never realized that he was actually my classmate until he just told me)
who happened to be related to the owner of the company Im working with right now. Its not a big company though.
Ive been staying in this company for a year now... i dont have any complaints in this company, in fact I enjoyed working and staying here because I really really like the people whom Im working with. ..and because our work needs a big passion and dedication, i dont really mind whether I worked during saturdays and sundays just to beat our deadline with our clients. I never regretted the fact that I even experienced sleeping in the office during the audit season . I never regretted having those sleepless nights. I had fun. I learned and I did enjoy. Im staying in this job because Im really really lucky to have my boss treating me like her little sister. Its quite a handful having a nice colleagues whom you can share simple laughs ... your food being feast upon. etc.
Im also lucky being offered by the company to pursue studying ACCOUNTANCY or MBA and all expenses paid by them. (well they are actually offering this to almost all of the employees who have stayed with them for the longest of time)....
I have a supporting family, nice friends and etc. What more can I ask for?
At the end of the day, while I was taking the bus going back home, i felt tired of the routinary acts im doing with my job. Honestly, i dont like my job. Its not like I dont like the people im working with, in fact I love them. if i can just stay with them forever then I would....but I do know within myself that this job is not for me. I dont belong in this kind of industry. I know deep within myself that I have something for ARTS and COMPUTER related stuff, I have thought of pursuing this but its quite impossible with the course I took.... You might say pursue on studying again but dont you think its kinda late for me to get a new degree? and I can't simply asked my parents to provide me the tuition fee for my studies and working as a part timer won't be sufficient to provide for my needs when I go back to a University.
lets see, im 21 already. That means if im going to take another course that would make me 25 already... eeeewww. Yuki is getting old.
I just hate the fact and even regretted the fact that I just realized too late what I really wanted to do in my life.
Its really hard for me to get up in the morning and feeling so freaking lazy as a bum to go to work and do accounting related stuffs.
On the same context, I dont even know If im actually prepared to resign because Im scared to lose money?? heheheheh.. I dont know. It just felt like im not going anywhere. Its like Im working my ass of and I dont know where I am going.
and btw, this work is very anti-social... why? because I need to attend trainings and study session provided by the company during saturdays.. -.-;;; its mandatory.. I no longer have time to party and i odnt have the time to hunt BF'S outside D<.... eeeew (anyone interested to apply
... just raise my hand?? ahihihi)
Ofcourse, I have my dreams and ambition and being a genius accountant is not included in my plans. I do envy those people who have known what they have wanted from the beginning. I hope I was also the same. =(...