I couldn't believe I wasn't loved for who I was, but because you were losing attention from your other girlfriend, and I was the only one there for you
I couldn't believe you betrayed me by going out with a girl a month before you said that you fell in love with me, saying you love me but no other
I can't believe I loved you wholeheartly but one day on the phone you said,
"What the fk did you do to my girlfriend, she's gone insane"
"What relationship? You've never been in one."
"If you mess with her again, I'll get people to hunt you down at your school, if you mess with me I'll make you regret, I'll make you feel double the pain I feel, I don't give a sh** about you".
When I've done nothing to hurt her... I've only told her the truth from my side to help her think about it.
It hurt me very much and I couldn't stop crying at 3am, hoping I would get a shoulder to cry on, but no one was there for me anymore...
Why did I have to be victimized by you? If you've never told me you really loved me, we would've been still friends until today
Why did my heart have to be crushed by you? Why did my hopes have to be torn-apart?
Why did you tell me what you were going to wear a nice dress-shirt when you were going to meet my mom to hide your tattoos?
Why did you have to tell me in the most sincere way that you love me everytime we were fighting to calm me down?
Why did you have to tell me when we're going to get married 5 years from now and be happily together forever...?
Even after it was all over and I found out how many bad qualities you possessed, and that the 'you' I fell in love with wasn't you... But your fake side.
You called me to sing me happy birthday and apologized for what you've done to me, hoping I'll turn back to you, but I'm not stupid like I've been before.
You're not sincere
You're not caring
You're not kind
You're aggressive
You're revengeful.
Your ex told me, "He makes you think he's your last but he eventually reveals his mask, scarring your life."
I eventually became more brave and let you go, because I don't deserve this kind of treatment.
I'll never forgive you for what you've done to me, but I thank you for letting me experiencing my first, serious relationship, even though it's been one-sided all the time.
I finally understand the quote "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger".
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Thanks Glarbage! 
Last edited by Ruuka; 12-24-2008 at 01:20 PM.
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