So, now you want to apologise. After all you said to me, after what you called me. You even told me you didn't love me anymore.. I love you with my everything, I honestly do, that just killed me and you kept doing it. I finally stopped crying when a friend came over and we went out. I had a fun time and had cute guys around me all night, and an old guy hit on me which was weird.. I'm completely sober and wish I could drink but I made a promise I wouldn't until a special occasion came up.. But I did go through almost a full pack of smokes.. In like 4 hours. (:
Now I must control myself. I can't go back.. I would love to forget this all happened, but I can't. And hell, this only a few hours after I started planning a trip.. For you. We would have had so much fun.
You haven't seen b****. i don't know why I'm even talking to you. I know I shouldn't be, I should be gone. I love how you just expect me to be cool with it, like it just never happened, "oh you broke my heart, here, let me give it to you to break again" cause we both know you will. You'll get angry and hate me for JOKING again. Then you go and say I'm doing wrong. Sorry, I'm not surrounded by the opposite sex 24/7, and if I am, they're gay/related or i'm not interested.
Picked the worst day to piss me off. Really.
Last edited by Settie; 08-10-2012 at 11:58 PM.
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