I understand how you feel. Of course it's natural to feel that way sometimes, or even most of the time. It's just the personality and what you have adapted to. When it first happens it's like a dream and then it's like every little thing could make you snap and turn selfish and needy. But it doesn't hurt to think about what exactly you're doing. People are not nice to you, are not friends with you so you can take advantage of that friendliness. Please consider the possibilities that the person may leave you anytime. Yes, I do understand. That sudden rush of emotions that you have felt so many times, but even so, it's like experiencing it for the first. You are still young inside, but it's also a great time for you to mature these emotions. Turn it into something less negative. The earth is not going to give in just because you feel betrayed, pained. The people who love you know you are strong and they believe in you so much. These depressing days? They will pass. "Happiness is an emotion, not a destination." So don't expect anything, but fight for the things you want to last. It's okay. It's alright if you get jealous. It's an easy emotion to feel, but even if that person is a stranger, fight it. If you won't and you choose to feel down about it, then it is your own fault for giving in to such a weakness. When such rash uncontrolled emotions of yours get out of hand - and that will happen eventually - you may just lose everything you have. What will you do when the world turns it's back on you? There will be nothing for you to blame but yourself. Don't choose to be weak. I may not be your best friend, nor a very good acquaintance, but I also believe you are strong. It was my first impression from such a while back. Many arms are open for you. From Him too. But forgiveness is not absolute every time.
only for tonight . . .
. . . w i l l y o u s t a y w i t h m e ?