Looking back on the memories i had archived away, while im clearing out things, brings tears to my eyes. Many sad and happy memories that i still barely remember but i might not have if i didnt see the things i did. Like looking back at old yearbook signatures from friends you thought were friends or cherishing every word written from those special friends who wanted to take up one entire page all for themselves. Hehe.. yeah i remember those, the old Role Playing letters written from one to another.. The old drawings we made when we were bored or just had something funny to express through art. Yeah i have them saved and put away for days like this when i go and search through them again and relive the memories over and over again.
Whether it would be the sad ones or the happy ones, the feelings still come to me the same. Remembering how a person once was and how much they meant to you... just to see them turn out horrible or betray you in the end when you didnt see it coming or didnt believe it could happen. Remembering the days spent with people you cherished and remembering why you had to part ways or say goodbye even though you said it wont be forever.. then many years later be reunited with them to relive the promise that was made.
To see the many silly and heartfelt songs i wrote and sang because that was my expression of feelings since i was much too shy and to myself to even think of speaking the words composed from my heart to anyone. Ah -sigh- im happy to see all these things once again, i just wish the painful memories didnt hurt so much that it outshines the good ones ._.
In the end theres only one thing that matters to me though, and that is that irregardless of how the memories happened, they will always be a part of who i am. Happy, sad, exciting, upsetting.. It doesnt matter because despite what happened i will always cherish all the things that came to pass, because without them i would not be who i am today. So thank you to all my friends who molded and shaped my life <3
I look forward to making more wonderful memories to fill this archive called Life.