It appears that this is it for us. We're just a page in the history books now.
We had our ups and downs. At first; we were having fun on that roller coaster ride, but then as time went by it seemed like all we were doing was taking a trip to Hell. I feel so much pain, so much sorrow and regret.. I can't stop thinking about you. I can't get you out of my mind, or my heart. I hate myself..
For what it's worth; I am deeply sorry for everything I've done, and especially for what I did that day and how I acted. I know that you won't believe me when I say this - I don't expect you to, but, Ich liebe dich. Really, I do. I just wish that I could go back to that day and stop myself from being a fool, but I can't.. And I know that nothing I ever do or say will bring you back to me.
You're probably sitting in your room right now laughing at how pathetic I am, and how I deserve to feel this emptiness. Well.. you know what? You're right. I deserve it and much more. What I didn't and don't deserve.. was/is you.
I'm sad.. so sad that I wish that I could just cry it all out; but things don't work that way.. You of all people should know that. This.. I guess this is just gonna be something I will have to learn from. But it's okay, really.. Even if I'm not okay, the only thing that matters to me right now is you - that you'll be alright.
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I don't want it to end like this..
Last edited by Rom; 09-15-2011 at 02:57 AM.
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