I guess what I predicted came true. I knew the moment I left, something was going to happen. I knew in my heart that even on Friday something happened. But why I continue to allow myself to give you the benefit of the doubt, I will never understand.
I hate you so much, I really really really really do; I can't say this enough. Stop talking to me with that tone as if you really do care, stop pretending nothing is happening, and that everything you're doing is okay. It's not, by any standards... why do you ever think it's okay? I thought at first it was just your feelings, I never knew you would take it this far; I will never ever feel your touch the same way ever again. It's disgusting knowing that you would do that.. when it's just something for you and me. I can't tell you just how upset I am for everything that happened this weekend... I knew from the moment on Friday that things will get worse.
I wish he sees through you, I really do, of just how selfish you are. You say you don't love him, and then you say you do. Even then, you told him you won't do anything about it, but you want him to. I always gave you a smile, and I've always been humble to you, but you're taking this way too far.
In the end, I guess it's just time for me to learn to let go.
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