Yeap. You care all right. It's been way over a month, and not a single word from you, still. You probably don't come here anymore, but if you did and still didn't say anything, then...
Wow. Just, wow. So many things remind me of you. Of..us. Why can't you just talk to me? And I know you're not scared or anything. You've never been scared to talk to me. Ever. I have to you, though. I'm easily intimidated. Along with being a natural little wimp. So what? At least I tried to fix things between us after everything. You didn't really even try, or talk about it... that's not fixing anything. That's putting a 10-pound bandaid on it and pulling it off 20 years later during a dinner or a conversation with someone completely unrelated or something. I've lost so many friends lately. But, over a month ago, we went from "alright" to "i never want to talk to you again or want anything to do with you". But, I can't get mad. I haven't gotten mad. Not since I apologized. I've just gotten really sad and depressed since then. It takes so much for me to keep going. And I keep losing friends because, for some reason, everyone wants to abandon me. Kind of like how you did.
But..heh. What can I say? This is Karma. This is nature's way of saying "you ****ed up, you get to deal with equal consequences". Suppose I deserve it for what I done. I deserve all four months of this bullshit.
Won't matter in the long run, I suppose. I might find someone else in 2 years. 4 years. 5 years. Something like that. I mean, I could find someone in a week, maybe less. But it would just be a "thing". It wouldn't be a true relationship, like a lot of my friends have.
God. It really, really sucks seeing all of my friends happy, going on with their lives, having the time of their lives... while I'm stuck here in the sands of time.
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