I thought this year was gonna start off as a ray of hope. (Kinda like our new preident is to many Americans and possibly many people across the world) Well it kind of started off with one incident. I had to finally cut myself off from someone who used to be a great, understanding friend. But overtime our friendship and respect for each other degraded. It's as if him growing up and growing out of a condition I'm still in has given him a huge ego and now he's arrogant as hell.
But what bothered me the most is that he didn't understand or treat me like he used to. And I never did anything or gave him any reason to change his attitude about me. And to think, you're supposed to become more mature as you grow up, right? Well all he became was one of many disappointing backwards growths I've had too see many acquaintances become. @_@
I guess it's the same as growing into a phase where you throw away the morals and positive behaviors and good nature you had in your previous phase. It doesn't just happen when a good kid becomes a bad teenager. Or a bright teenager becomes an idiotic adult that just keeps doing stupid things. It happens at any point in life.
When I look at all the changes around me, I feel like I've stayed the same, like I haven't changed my overall nature. My needs haven't changed much, since there's things I'm mentally incapable of changing. Of course there are a few things I handle in different ways now. But I'm not talking about the little things. I'm talking about the big picture. I haven't made much of any significant movement, I haven't become anything I never completely was or wasn't.
Lanayru / Mu Cephei \ Lucida