Although some of you may not have cared for Mushu, his death still bothers me a lot. This is someone that I will NEVER be able to chat with again.
And I just don't understand. I have no closure. A few days before he died, he did a server mic..if I had whispered him a hello...would that have helped? I didn't want to be a bother, but maybe I should have...now I never have that chance again! If third jobs HAD come out..would he still be with us?
And make fun of me if you like, but..yes, I feel things deeply. I'm typing now with tears running down my face. Sure, people die everyday. Sure, I didn't know him in person. I'm still torn up about this loss.
I try so hard to be nice, happy, loving, fun. And I'm sorry to be posting this emo-ness. But I'm tired and my head hurts and my body hurts and I barely sleep.
For the person in the guild who didn't believe me, who thought *I* was just staring bad rumors...well, trust me, I didn't want to believe it, either. Here is the link to his obituary.
Obituary for Christopher Fielding - Acheson & Graham Garden of Prayer Mortuary, Riverside, CA
I don't want to accept it, but I HAVE to accept it. I wouldn't make something like that up. I'm not some naive kid who believes the first thing she hears. I've watched all this for a week now.
Sorry, had to get this off my chest. Back to being the Happy Tabi you know and...well maybe not love, but put up with pretty well. <3