In other words, you are ready to die and live with 30 cats to keep you company and afraid you'll void your bowels often. You also have PTSD symptoms from your time in the wars and reminisce and chase children off a lawn you don't own...
EXACTLY. (not so sure about the ready to die part, though)
partying it up in ff14, hit me up @ midgardsomr server ign: [Ascherit Yhisa]