This time it all started off with making change for the cash register. My parents own a clothing store and my father's son "works" there too. I say he's my father's son because he came from my father's first family. (Father was married twice and had four children with his first wife and his second wife which is my mom, he had two kids with)

I say he had "kids with my mom" but apparently he doesn't think of my full brother and I as his kids since he keeps telling...

My full brother and I are apparently not my father's children according to him. They are "His wife's family."






At first I was really pissed at this, but it's all as well. I don't want to be related to that man's OTHER children any ****ing way.

Long story short, my mom came home to hear my dad badmouthing her to some relatives on the phone. He brings up the most irrelevant things. What the **** are we to him?

How could I have told you anything? How was I supposed to tell you anything when you were still friends with the guy who cheated on me? "He feels sooo bad for what he did," you kept telling me that. Well I never told you how I felt because of it. What use was it to tell you? You never told me he cheated on me for the longest time and the only reason why you told me is because the girl he cheated with mentioned it.

So I told everyone else who was close to me and that's how...

I ordered my grad dress and booked my hair appointment.

Now I have to finish University applications which should be all done after Thursday this week...

and then ..yes...

*foams at the mouth*

...have I really used the word 'love'? How could I have used such a strong word when I didn't even know what it was. How could I have uttered that word to someone to describe the swelling emotions within me? How could I have used that word, and now after all is said and done, I am fine now? What was love at that time? A yearning? An attachment? Why did I do it more than once...

Is love the word you use to describe when you deeply care for someone else and would do anything for? You'd...