viii.

"Why does what was beautiful suddenly shatter in hindsight because it concealed dark truths? Because such a situation makes it impossible to be happy? But we were happy! Sometimes the memory of happiness cannot stay true because it ended unhappily. Because happiness is only real if it lasts forever? Because things always end painfully if they contained pain, conscious or unconscious all along?"
— Bernhard Schlink, [U][I]The Reader[/I][/U]

Let me tell you one thing about regret. There is no end to it. You cannot find the beginning of the chain that brought us from there to here. Should I regret the whole chain, the air in between, or each individual link as if we could uncouple them? Should I regret the beginning which ended so badly? Or just the ending itself?

always,
n.