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Summer Vacation.

Posted 05-29-2011 at 10:49 PM by kuyaBaka
... and I don't know how to feel about it. I'm just a mess of emotions-- pretty much the same mess that I was before, only this time a bit different.

Firstly, it's him again. For the past month now, I've been trying to forget him. Curiosity killed the cat, I guess-- and satisfaction, at least as of yet, still has not brought him back. I ended up stumbling on his tumblr, which, of course, I decided to go through. One of the posts was an ask from some girl asking if he was gay, which he replied to with a "Nope." When I first saw that, I felt like the entire world just stopped in a screeching halt.
I'll be honest-- I was actually hoping that he was. He just seemed so "perfect." And that was one of the things I hated about him. I don't like cliche's, and when I think about swooning over someone who I don't even know very well only because of the things I know about him from what I've seen ... I feel like I'm just some immature 13-year-old girl who falls for the oldest fantasy-boyfriend-archetype.

But it's like-- well, then why have I been getting these mixed signals from him all semester? I thought I was just imagining everything and that all of it was just a coincidence or whatever. My friends refuse to believe so, though. One of them even came up to me, looked me straight in the face, and told me that it was impossible that he didn't harvest even a lick of interest in me and he must be bisexual or something. Do I really want to hold on to hope? Hoping something is going to happen has only ended in tragedy these past few years; what says that it's going to be different now? Personally, my outlook on this situation is to just forget it and enjoy myself being single. I'll just quit moping around about it and just vent out all that emotional stress on tumblr or something.

... but anyway. I kinda want my Summer vacation to just end. I know it's supposed to be a nice break from school and all, but I can't help but feel that I could be doing something other than laze around. Sure, I can hang out and catch up with old friends, but there's only so much of that I want to do. Then I want to get the hell out of here and move back up to San Jose again to enjoy the city. It's really boring here in cow-town, California.

Then there's also the fact that my family wants to do some traveling this Summer, something that I haven't done in a while. We've got plans to head up to Washington State and even further up to Vancouver. We're also thinking about spending some time down in San Diego again to head over to Legoland or something with some cousins of mine. That's all fine and dandy with me, but it's just the thought about being cooped up in a car for hours upon hours of endless driving that's got me second-guessing my Summer plans. Traveling never really tickled my fancy at all, unless it was something nice and quick like flying or something. I'm totally down with that 'cause it's more fun and gives me a different perspective on transportation. Hopefully we decide to fly up to Washington before getting a rental car to get along with our vacationing up there.


... I'm just ready to get back in the college-grind and do something again. Unpopular opinion: I can't wait to get the fall semester started. NO LONGER A FRESHMEN. HOO-HAAA!

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  1. Ascherit's Avatar
    it's ok kevin WE CAN BE SINGLE TOGETHER

    also he can be in the closet idk
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    Posted 05-31-2011 at 09:46 PM by Ascherit Ascherit is offline
  2. kuyaBaka's Avatar
    'kay. let's hit up those singles bars, kait.

    ahh-- I'd like to think so, yeah. But hoping something happens really hasn't played out to well in the past. If I keep dreaming and hoping with my head up in the clouds, I'll just fall real hard after I find out it's not true. I'd rather just keep my head at ground-level for now, and if something does happen next semester, I'll just be whisked off my feet.
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    Posted 06-01-2011 at 12:01 AM by kuyaBaka kuyaBaka is offline
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