Pretending you're strong is so ****ing exhausting.
I don't want to pretend I'm strong, I want to BE strong.
WHY CAN'T I BE STRONG ENOUGH TO NOT GET AFFECTED BY SHIT COMING FROM SOMEONE INSIGNIFICANT. IT SHOULDN'T MATTER. But it does. And it hurts. It hurts like nothing else.
I'm so sick and tired of these flashbacks, of the feelings from 10 years ago and all the shit I went through that I've tried my best to forget.
That one word can trigger so many bad feelings and memories.
I'm so angry. So angry at myself for being so weak.
So angry at everyone else, who speaks before they think, and don't realize what they say can be like a razor blade cutting straight through your throat.
I just.... I'm so upset.
Didn't know where else to write this.
Not like people understand. People just assume shit and go with it. Well **** you, and **** your shitty opinion and your life. You have no idea what others have been through and you will never understand or respect someone else's feelings.
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