I don't see why you're always complaining? You get everyone at your feet all the time and only ever push them away. What is wrong with you?
On another note.
Words can't express how grateful I am, reading back through only makes me realize how pathetic and unaware I was. Without meeting you I wouldn't be the woman I am right now. You taught me a lot of things and you're the type of guy that anyone would love to have in their life. The girl you're with is so lucky to have you but my only wish is to start over just so I could have that warm feeling back that I had when talking to you. You made me feel so special and I miss that.
If you had one shot, one opportunity to seize everything you ever wanted, in one moment. Would you capture it? Or just let it slip?