Im sick all the flipping time. Not with a cold..
but chest pains, and stabbing feelings in different places of my body.... and constant pressure in random spots (like chest area)
Im always afraid that Im going to have to go to the hospital again...
and i have panic attacks.. Real ones. where i feel like nothing ive ever felt before. Like im going to die, right now.
Im constantly in anxiety.. gritting my teeth.. and everything is tight on me.. i find myself holding my muscles tense all over my body for unknown lengths of time..
I feel lightheaded and like im disconnected from my body.
Sometimes i will cough., constantly.. for months at a time. Just a dry cough.
Ive been to about 15 different doctors over the past 2 years.. and none of them have a clue on whats wrong.
I just cry and cry cuz i dont wanna hurt anymore..
and everyone says that its in my head.. but its not. I wouldnt put this on anyone, not even MEAN TROLLZ.
I feel better when im distracted, which is hard to do.. since the chest pains, its HARD for me to get into ANYTHING.
My guildies help a lot....
I cant play video games anymore. I cant read a book, I can BARELY sleep.
Cuz im thinking..
Chest pains.
Hard to breath..
Numb left arm.
Stabbing pains.
Im going to die... if not soon, then someday. Its going to happen.
and nothing more.. than those things,
*sob* ;-;
