Sometimes I think there is something wrong with me.
When holidays come I lack the effort to make contact with my friends. Is it the fact I have not bothered to learn to drive? Or is there something wrong with my attitude. Do I simply take friendship for granted?
I think I need to do something about the amount of time I play trickster. Not much during the term but it enough to do some damage to me. And then giving it up completely, I fear I will do the same with my online friends leave them behind.
However, I will still think of you all if something ever happens. Every one of you has helped me through life and helped shaped me (whether it good or bad).
Well thanks for reading. Maybe you feel this way yourself, maybe you don't and laugh at my trivial confusion finding my little problems silly when there are more significant things to worry about.
I never was a person to talk about how I feel. I prefer to keep what I feel inside me unless it is a positive feeling. There are some people who can tell when I am upset. How they respond is another thing.
Do I have a trust issue? I guess I worry what I say to someone they may ise against me. I think it is more a scar from my primary school days. Some people decide they do not want to be my friend anymore and this happens twice.
Actually there is one person I trust to talk about my feelings with. Even thiugh we do not see each other often, she is still willing to listen.
Sorry about my ramble, I needed to get it out of my head.
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